November
Sunday, November 01, 2009 | 8:53 AM |
Start of November. Supposedly to be a nice start..
But i started it with dreams containing colourful moths.
and i think moths represent death.
what's more, i woke up at exactly 3.33am.
The Death Time.
Some Friends close, or on facebook, wrote that they are getting in accidents, some died. i'm beginning to be afraid. Those who are reading this blog, or those who i care, take great care of yourself alright?
A Worst Start.
A Strange Encounter today triggered something.
The reason why i was so dependent on someone, anyone till now.
The reason i want to be independent, but i'm.. unable to accomplish it.
The reason where i tried so hard to be a social butterfly,
The reason i force myself to meet new people though i hated it.
The reason why i hated crowds..
The reason why i hated to be alone.
The phobia towards strangers is coming back to me.
That i feel not the least confident when i stepped out of my house.
That i feel insecure, so unsure, exposed to everyone.
i really hated it.
Signing off,
miin
But i started it with dreams containing colourful moths.
and i think moths represent death.
what's more, i woke up at exactly 3.33am.
The Death Time.
Some Friends close, or on facebook, wrote that they are getting in accidents, some died. i'm beginning to be afraid. Those who are reading this blog, or those who i care, take great care of yourself alright?
A Worst Start.
A Strange Encounter today triggered something.
The reason why i was so dependent on someone, anyone till now.
The reason i want to be independent, but i'm.. unable to accomplish it.
The reason where i tried so hard to be a social butterfly,
The reason i force myself to meet new people though i hated it.
The reason why i hated crowds..
The reason why i hated to be alone.
The phobia towards strangers is coming back to me.
That i feel not the least confident when i stepped out of my house.
That i feel insecure, so unsure, exposed to everyone.
i really hated it.
Signing off,
miin