sad
Friday, December 22, 2006 | 5:44 AM |
i am really very sad and stressed too !!! ytd night even because dis thing cried alot . .
i am really stupid !! cant even get the thing right . .
although liang lao shi say i improve a lot le . .
but i knoe i am not up to the standard yet !!
i really scared dat i ... haix ! monday . no problems at all .. teacher keep saying me improve le ..
wednesday . things went on smoothly .. den when miss see came in ...
everything went wrong ... dunno is whether i am nervous or when i saw miss see ..
i cant do it right ... becos of dis ... i caused everyone to train with me ...
i am sure dey dont wan ... keep replaying the first part ...
i felt guilty !! i am so fed-up with myself ... hate myself soo much ...
i am really sry everyone !!! i dont wan to do this ... but ...
blame dat i am stupid ... must train myself very hard ... felt really guilty ...
becos transporting the drums ... dey are already very tired ...
i cant even perform well ... i am useless !!! sry sry sry !!!
I DIDNT MEAN TO .... liang lao shi said dat ... even the whole grp of guzheng perform very well ...
if i get even one beat wrong ... straight away will lose marks ...
cos if those playing guzheng ones , dey get it wrong , at least dey have ppl to cover for dem ..
however , there is only one me ... alone ... if i get it wrong ...
no one cover for me ... and i happen to be the loudest ...
i am really stressed ... and miss see aim silver ....
liang lao shi aim gold ... last year we only get a bronze ...
is it possible ? i wonder ... with only drum problem .... i am already so stressed ...
how am i going to cope with studies ? cant breathe soon ....
hope i really can pass SYF smoothly ...
next year theres going to be a lot of problems and troubles ...
really stressed !! hu can help me ??
maybe only i can help myself ...
Signing off,
min